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Dear Lawyers,


 

Ben Stein & George Bush

The man on the left tried to rape me when I was 12.

I told my school in 1988.

I think they covered it up.

 

Per District Attorney Erica Hutchcraft, the FBI took over my case regarding theses child sex crimes. See letter attached. Nobody will call me back.

 

 

Dear Lawyers,

 

LAW OFFICES
GORDON BRAIKER-GORDON
ERIC S. GORDON
BONNIE-BRAIKER GORDON
SPENCER B. GORDON
5308 ALHAMA DRIVE
WOODLAND HILLS, CALIFORNIA 91364-2013

TELEPHONE (818) 710-1511
FACSIMILE (818) 710-1514
SENDER’S E-MAIL:
spencerbgordon@me.com

 

Hi Spencer Gordon,
I stand by my statements.
I will send Linda Hernandez at the City Attorney’s office a copy of this too.
Attached is her correspondence below.
My constitutional rights (state & federal) as the survivor of two violent child sex crimes have been violated repeatedly.
Attached are documents & notations of professionals in California required to report child sex crimes under California state law.
 
Jim is a certified police instructor as well as an expert in Child Sex Crimes.
Francey Hakes is also a child sex crimes expert and I believe she was required to report these crimes as well.
 
I think he was required to report all of these crimes in 2011 when I sent him my book proposal and he gave me a quote for my book.
 
Also, I told him again about my two child sex assaults in 2014 when the Bill Cosby story broke & a possible child kidnapping story that I heard when I was 6 years old but I was not sure if the story was true and I wanted him to check it out.
 
As professional child sex crimes experts & public figures, Jim Clemente & (and I think) Francey Hakes were required to report these crimes in California both in 2011 (*when I sent him my book proposal with the two child sex crimes in 1980 & 1986)  & also in 2014 when I emailed him on Facebook & he replied & then we had a phone conversation & then I sent him a follow up email about the Birch & Steve rape/kidnapping story I told him on the phone & the Ben Stein attempted rape & stalking of a 12 year old & telling my school about it in 1988 at Tomlinson Middle School in Fairfield, CT.
 
I also sent Francey Hakes several emails after I reported Ben Stein regarding Birch & Steve & the similar rape MO of my crimes when I read about the East Area Rapist & asked her to help me.
 
I also emailed Francey in 2017 about the photos I found on Ben Stein’s Facebook account and I believe she was required to report that as well.
 
He led me to believe from that phone call in 2014 that he would report both assaults to the FBI and it was taken care of and they would investigate.
 
I do not remember him telling me to go to the Police immediately & emphatically like Allison Hope Weiner did in 2016 when I told her the Ben Stein story. She told me to file a police report immediately and emphatically in about May 2016
 
I only went in to the police & filed a report in June 2016 after Allison Hope Weiner demanded I go & then I called Jim Clemente to ask him what was going on & told him I was hesitant to go in and it was only then I believe in 2016 that he told me law enforcement couldn’t do anything until I filed a police report.
 
I thought because he was a professional he was required to report these crimes in 2011 & again in 2014 until present & would do the best job he could to help me. 
 
He is an expert witness in child sex crimes and his & Francey’s behavior was horrific to me & I believe I have PTSD from their intimidation and witness tampering.
I have the right to free speech & opinion of my interaction with them as the survivor of a violent child sex crime  ( I came to them for help & the FBI took over that part of my case, see letter from the DA below)  & the state of California has a law called Marsy’s Law.
Please see documents and police reports below & emails to Jim Clemente & Francey Hakes.
Here’s a letter from District Attorney Erika Hutchcraft attached & my police report from both child sex crime attacks & Linda Hernandez of the LA City Attorney’s office Victim’s program Devonshire LAPD division.
With an open case at the FBI, I’m not sure what’s going on but I know I am a child sex crime survivor of two violent child sex crimes.
Jim & Francey’s behavior has horrified/devastated me and I am seeking intense therapy because I think I have PTSD from their & law enforcement’s mistreatment of me & have already been in the emergency room once already this year due to stress regarding Jim Clemente’s misleading behavior over the years & the violations of my Marsy’s rights regarding both of my cases.
I’m seeking legal consul right now regarding my two open child sexual assault cases with the LAPD, FBI & Jim & Francey’s behavior.
Per District Attorney Erica Hutchcraft, the FBI took over my case regarding theses child sex crimes.
I have attached copies from the LA City Attorney’s office regarding my cases & am filing a notice with the LAPD about their behavior as I still am not sure of the status of my attackers who violently assaulted me in 1980 & again in 1986 when Ben Stein stalked me for 2 years.
Jim & Francey’s corruption has devastated my life & they both gave me a lot of misleading information as a mandatory reporters of child sex crimes in California & presented themselves to me & to the public as a child sex crime survivor advocates.
The FBI took over my case (See letter from District Attorney Erika Hutchcraft attached). I  am going to consult with an attorney regarding my Marsy’s rights as a witness/survivor of a what now I think is a federal case & my freedom of speech regarding my rights to tell my story & as a violent child sex crime survivor in a federal case.
  I came to Jim and Francey Hakes for help as they presented themselves to me as child sex crime victim right’s advocates & Jim mislead me for years regarding my cases.
(See my blog for statement,  Erika Hutchcraft’s letter on my twitter timeline re: & Jim & Francey’s behavior with my cases)  & will have my legal consul respond to you.
 Morgain  McGovern
Morgain McGovern
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This letter is addressed to me from Erika Hutchcraft, District Attorney regarding William Birch Davis, Steven Brett Davis’s brother who is still on the loose

 

My 1980 rape by Steven Brett Davis reported 2009

This attack was reported in 1980 by Boston Children’s Hospital & again I reported it in 2009 with LAPD Devonshire with Detective January and again in 2016 at LAPD Van Nuys Courthouse Div with Officer Brandstetter.  I told Jim Clemente about this in 2011 in my book proposal and in 2014 in an email and phone call when I reached out to him. This is the one that the FBI took over; per District Attorney Erika Hutchcraft, June 2017.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Professionals Required to report under CA State Law

 

 

 

 

 

 

I also told Emily Vacher, head of Facebook Child security on twitter about the child photos I found tagged to Ben Stein’s Facebook account and she blocked me. She is also on the board of the NCMEC (National Center for Missing & Exploited Children) I notified them too of Ben Stein’s attempted rape & photos I found & have not had a response .

 

 

Here’s Emily Vacher with one of the Keating 5, Dennis Deconcini.

 

 

 

 

 

Birch & Steve’s case * (*Erika Hutchcraft’s email re FBI looking for Birch)  & Ben Stein’s stalking & assault  are both in this police report filed June 2016 at LAPD Van Nuys East with Officer Brandstetter.  I’ve never met Detective Householder)

 

 

 

September 2009 I filed a police report with Detective January at the LAPD Devonshire division near Northridge, CA where the crime happened in 1980 with William Birch Davis & Steven Brett Davis

Erika Hutchcraft found them in one day in June 2017. On her day off.

She finally found the right family.

 

 

I also adopted an orange cat from the Clemente family & I named him George McGovern.

 

I also adopted an orange cat from the Clemente family & I named him George McGovern.

 

George Jones McGovern

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Garden (for the gun merchants)


Red Apple and Silver Bells. A book of verse for children ... Illustrated by A. B. Woodward

The Child World. [In verse.] ... Illustrated by C. Robinson

Garden

(Song for the gun merchants/Rock Opera)

Kindergardeners
stand at the end of your bed
middle of the night
poverty cycles
Treason & Texans
look in your eyes
its your garden

Throw some seeds
Throw some seeds
Watch it grow
Watch it grow
You reap what you sow
you reap what you sow

Just like Isis
Just like the gun show
Just like the news
Just like your Gods
Just like your slaves
You reap what you sow

kindergardeners and slaves
stand at the end of your bed
middle of the night
Poverty cycles and prisons
look in your eyes
its your garden

Throw some seeds
Throw some seeds
Watch it grow
Watch it grow
you reap what you sow
you reap what you sow

Mojave Phoenix (For Sylvia)


Desert flower rocks

You can be happy
or you can be right
my sister told me
about wanting to win
one dark night
A housewife mantra
to get though the day

But later
after the deaths
and the poisons
and my outrage
her mantra washed over me
like the Mojave

You have to respect 
anything
that survives 
in the desert
my father told me

The searing white sky of noon
flashed light milky blue
Like Lazarus winking
The old one-eyed cat
who stared at me
from under the house
and who’ll survive us all

The mountain range
dry and still
as a rusty dustbowl handsaw
left behind on the horizon
to orient the Van Nuys pilots
who buzz by
racing their small gasoline
lawnmowers of the sky

The wind 
scatters my old scales
over scorched earth
little parts of me

flaked off, blown about
this no mans land
Lot’s wife awakening
Flakes of stone

flakes of gold

flakes of silver
baked off
brushed off
scrubbed off
raw new skin exposed

underneath the cracked sage
and bleached pavement
gathering dew
from cool spots and quiet shelters

When the purple evening finally comes
the crickets under the sage and chaparral
tune up in their ancient amour
and they start to sing to me.

 

London To Paris-On The Run


March 1991

London to Paris
On the Run

March 1991-London

Most people seldom realized my mother was insane when talking to her, but I knew.

When I was young, standing around my mother’s knees, I loved listening to her voice and watching people fall under her spell. At the time, I thought everyone loved her as much as I did. She had a smooth throaty voice that was rich yet feminine and it could turn into velvet when she wanted something.  It wrapped around you like the warm blanket of an opiate high.

With all the adventures and carpetbaggery and pills in her life; she still could keep all the lies together in that racing, manic mind and spin tales so casually when dealing with her newest victim.

Mom told tales of woe that were simple for others to understand- but her specialty was finding people with money and getting it out of them.

My mother was a master illusionist. Most people who got swindled by her would agree later on; she had a way about her.

She was witty, educated and articulate-with a genuine protectiveness for the uneducated and downtrodden.

Her face would captivate you; she had bright blue eyes of a true Irishwoman and the smooth white alabaster skin of her Mother’s Polish roots that had bewitched many a lover during her days in Greenwich Village on Jane Street. Despite being heavy later on in life, she was always considered beautiful because she carried it well.

On the day she jumped bail after several months at Holloway Women’s Prison, she called me from a pay phone at her bail hostel in Oxford. If she stayed for her court date, she said, she’d be locked up for more than a year. She told me to start packing, because she’d be by to pick me up in an hour.

Looking back now, I realize I would have done serious time had I been caught helping her escape, but, I was seventeen and thought I could save her from herself.

Anyway, I knew it was time to get the fuck out of dodge; it was just a matter of time before I caught for performing the traveler’s check scam she taught me. The con had kept me fed while I was on the streets, but it was still considered theft in the eyes of her majesty’s courts and I didn’t want to end up sharing a cell with my mother.

It was around mid-afternoon when I heard her pull up to Amanda’s apartment in a black shiny London taxi. I was rushing around, packing up the last of my shit, when I looked out of the open window, down to the wet street and saw her getting out of the cab. I dropped my cigarette with a shaking hand and stared at her.

The few short months in prison had changed and hardened her, she’d lost weight and her face was ashen. For the first time, she’d been in prison for months, not just the few days that she was used to. I had told her over and over again that the computer age was upon us, but she kept running her old scams and ended up in all the systems. I began to believe her when she told me England was trying to kill us.

“We have to go,” Mom said as she walked in Amanda’s East end apartment in Stoke Newington. She looked around at the bare living room and her eyes settled on me, she was edgy and restless. “Now.” she looked at her watch. She didn’t bother to chat with Amanda; who was by the window, smoking a silk cut.

I looked at Amanda and she understood. She and I were the same age and became friends in a strange way. Our mothers were cellmates together at Holloway.

Mom had begged Amanda’s mother to let me live with her daughter, because it was winter in London and I was sleeping on the streets or at friend’s houses. Her mom showed great compassion and Amanda and I bonded immediately.

We had a lot in common-we liked to get as drunk as we could on Thunderbird, smoke hash and laugh at the absurdity of life.

Amanda had a thick Cockney accent and was of mixed race. She wore matching Addias hoodie tracksuits and always had her hair up in a ponytail. She was Sporty Spice.  She had creamy cafe latte skin, with a spattering of freckles across the bride of her nose and her eyes were hazelnut colored with flecks of copper. She should have been a Bennetton model, but she was stuck in the ghetto and didn’t know how to get out.

Amanda had talents and one of them was being a professional when it came to rolling spliffs. She taught me how to roll quick, small ones you could puff on and toss in the bushes if a cop was nearby. Pipes were too much evidence to carry and get busted with.  Joints, as we Americans call them. Spliffs in England.

The Brits also have a different way of smoking out. When you smoke weed in a circle of friends in the U.S, you take a hit and pass it. In England, one holds on the joint for a few puffs and smokes 3 or 4 hits while everyone chats. If you pulled that shit in California, you would get your ass kicked for Bogarting the joint. Puff, puff pass, bitch. Everyone needs to get high. Now.

Oh, and they don’t have weed, grass, chronic or any of the green stuff over there. They smoke hash. And if you smoke too much or try to smoke it like grass, you will puke in a few hours.

Reality was something we didn’t like to deal with while our mothers were in prison together, so we got high. And drunk. But high during the day. We knew that if you drank during the day, you were an alcoholic. So we smoked hash.

Amanda would pull out a brown sticky square of hash and flick her lighter over the end corner of it. She would carefully sprinkle the crumbly brown hash over tobacco, which had been ripped out of a Silk Cut cigarette. She rolled it up in a Zig Zag paper and  light it. She squinted as the cloud of smoke wafted in her face.

She took a long drag of a joint and held it in as she spoke,  “Morgain, I’m just a half caste girl living in the ghetto. ” She blew it out and her eyes watered. “What kind of job can I get? I ain’t got nuffink, mate. No fucking education, no fucking money, not even me Mum.” She shook her head ruefully. She looked up at me, like maybe I had the answer.

I replied,  “At least your mum left you a house to live in when she went down in flames, my Mom left me holding a bag of shit. Pass that spliff.”

We’d dissolve into the giggles and insulate ourselves against the harsh world with laughter. The highs from the hash would take us to an innocent place where we could be like children again. She was the only girlfriend I’ve ever had that also had a mom in prison and we could tell each other the truth.

I’d smoke and smoke, taking deep long hits into my lungs, so it would fill up the aching in my chest. The fuzzy, creeping feeling that spread through my body made me feel safe.

I felt bad that Amanda didn’t have any sisters to share the misery of having a parent in Prison. At least I had my three sisters when Mom got arrested in the States. I thought about them and knew they were worried about me, but there wasn’t anything they could do. They didn’t have money to send me and were trying to stay alive themselves. And, I was too ashamed to tell them that she’d tricked me, again.

Now, Mom was back. I wasn’t sure why I felt so uneasy around her, but I could tell that she was in the dark places of her mind where not even I could reach her. My mother was gone, replaced by a strange, sinister woman with a wild, leaping look in her eyes.

Usually when it was time to run, Mom would laugh and say to us, “Let’s get this show on the road, kid!” or “You go where I go amigo!” but not this time.

I was packing my stuff in the bathroom and I caught my reflection in the mirror as I looked up from the sink. I was very pale and my eyes had a strange glimmer to them as well. They weren’t my eyes, they were like a street cat’s, skittish and not sure who to trust. Mom’s long stay in prison must have changed me too.

I said goodbye to my friend, thanking her for saving my life and from the bitterly cold London streets where I had been wandering, humiliated after I had to leave my posh school and friends in Kensington. I lugged my suitcase down the stairs and we got into the waiting taxi.

As the taxi puttered along to train station, I took a long last look out the window. When we fled from the detectives in the States, Mom told me she was going to turn her life into something good here and get a job as a writer. I had loved this city and all the hope it held for us in the beginning. Then everything had turned dark, like it always did before we had to leave in a hurry.

Waterloo station was coming up and I thought of the long trip before us. Getting out of England was going to be hard. Mom was supposed to be back at the bail hostel by now and it was getting dark. They would start looking for her soon.

Mom and I got out of the cab and headed towards the train station. She was slow and creaky from age and I turned around to wait for her. The wind whipped her grey hair up in tufts, in a comical way, like a picture of fun times from the rollercoaster rides at an amusement park. She smiled at me and I knew I couldn’t leave her. Another round in prison would kill her.

We could start over. Mom would never be able to get a job with all the police and detectives looking for her, but somehow, starting over sounded right.

Going to France would buy us some time to come up with a solution. Maybe the detectives would realize she was mentally ill and needed help, not prison.

She was supposed to be back at the bail hostel in Oxford by dusk, and it was definitely dark now. We still needed another hour on the train south to the ocean.  Then we had to get on the ferry in Portsmouth.  Somehow, we had to get on the boat without Mom getting caught through their checkpoint and sent back to Holloway Women’s Prison.

When we got to the Waterloo train station, I realized sporting events were finally good for something. The British were invading France for the weekend so see their soccer team.  A massive crowd of  rose-cheeked men from Liverpool in soccer jerseys were flooding the station, trying to get on the last trains to the ferry. The were jumpy and excited, looking for a fight and a fuck.

These Celtic men were on fire and they were determined to stay as functionally drunk as possible. They carried cases of beer under their arms and most had backpacks filled with more supplies in case they ran out on the nighttime ferry ride over.

For once, the ancient rivalry between these two countries helped women. Well, they helped two Irish American gypsy women evade the law. Thanks, soccer.

As we went into Waterloo Station, I hugged her. Then we went over to the ticket window to buy our tickets to Portsmouth, where the ferry would be waiting.


Sepulveda


Sepulveda

Late on Sepulveda

gleaming brown bodies sway, 

women of the night

reflect the light

of helicopters hunting its prey. 

Circling and circling,

deep dives and swims

sea creatures of the air

hunt the pilgrim.

Blue night

killer whales of the sky

take deep breaths 

and plunge from up high

illuminating the lawn

and junkie eye

Flickers of hope

Rhythmic beating

thundering

heart full of dope

They came to save her

But I know better. 

~Morgain McGovern

May 2012